Tuesday 27 September 2011

I'm free as a bird

So what next?

A second week had passed and I was unlocked for the weekend, after the munch. As it turned out sandy and I had some very passionate sex on Sunday night. I don't recall specifics but I do remember it was kinky, hot, and my orgasm was spectacular!

What came next was a surprise. Sandy decided that she wanted me to cum every day for the next week. Exactly one orgasm a day, to be done at work by myself. I.e. Not much fun orgasms. Why? She said she thought it was mean to make me do it without her, and she loved the power of being able to control so personal a thing about me.

And that is what I did. One orgasm a day, every day, except one where I was too busy. The next day I had two. Sandy and I also had sex, but of course I wasn't allowed to cum then. In fact sandy loved knowing I had had 'my fun' and she could just enjoy herself. Not that that stops her normally.

It was a fun week and I certainly enjoyed my extra orgasms! I'm missing them now I'm back on the once a week schedule...

Friday 23 September 2011

The one true way

There are those on the Internet who espouse their own one true way. Who believe they are correct and brook no conversation about it. Most of those people are fools and as such can be discounted.

Once in a while you find someone who is not a fool. Someone intelligent. Someone who many consider to be a leading resource in their field. I don't intend to name names, but for the second time I find myself disappointed by a particular one of those individuals. Someone intelligent who is closed to other people's thoughts, and closed to evaluating their own opinion in the light of discourse, is in my opinion worse than the fool who doesn't know better.

I will not engage this person a third time. I've worked with their like before and know it is pointless.

I leave you with this snippet, a childish resolution to very short conversation. I quote..

'No it's not. End of conversation.'





Sunday 18 September 2011

What does she really think?

The lovely Mistress Millicent wrote these words which I thought Sandy might enjoy reading. I confess I edited them slightly (I hope Mistress Millicent doesn't mind) to speak better to her, gentle them a little. My edit is below.

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You have proven to be a loyal husband and I love you. That doesn't mean that I must care.

I don't care if you don't want to play this game anymore.

I don't care about what you think our marital vows meant.

I don't care how jealous it makes you feel.

I don't care if you are humiliated.

I don't care about your desire to fuck me.

I don't care if you need to cum.

I will strip you naked.

I will leave the cage on your cock.

I will place you on your knees.

I will lash your body to the pillar in my bedroom.

I will insist that you watch and listen as I fuck another.

I will force you to experience my orgasm at the hands of someone else.

I will look upon you with amusement as you lick his cum from my body.

I will laugh as you clean his cock with your mouth.

I don't care what you may think about it.

Your desires are not my concern.

That is the essence of Mistress and slave.

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I sent this to sandy, mostly for interest. I often send her tidbits she might enjoy. This was her response...

"She's v dominant - not caring enough in the way it's expressed but I guess I share the same sentiments!!"

Was I still locked?

Locked husband asked if I was still locked while at the munch being a Dom. The answer is no.

On Thursday morning i asked for a break for a day or two, the area around the tube was getting a tiny bit bruised and sore. It's a lucky thing I did! I went out for a drink with friends. A late and drunken affair. one of the guys there suspects I have a pa and has been itching to find out the truth. While taking a pee he actually looked over, craning his whole body to see my cock and find out if I do or not. Made me laugh, especially since, due to the angle, he didn't see the ring and told me now he knew I didn't. Of course I spent the evening messing with him and telling him he should have looked from underneath, so now he is back to square one, not knowing. Haha.

But... Imagine if I'd been tubed when he looked! I can hide it from a casual glance at a urinal, but not a determined look. Phew!

Anyway Friday I was still unlocked for the soreness reason, so I could be fully Dom mentally. Ive been unlocked most of the weekend too, except Saturday daytime when sandy was away and didn't trust me on my own.. I checked to see if she had hidden the keys since it was only for the day, she laughed when she heard what I did and told me of course she had. She also told me it's what makes me feel loved, knowing she cares enough to keep me denied and safe.

how true!

Saturday 17 September 2011

Confusing

I'm hoping it's not too confusing for you out there. It can be for me, heheh.

Tonight i went to a Munch with friends, I've been on and off for a year. I was there with two female friends one of whom subs to me sometimes. Good fun! So today I've kissed three beautiful women, if you include my wife, and had a very fun sparkly eyed girl with her head thrown back, her throat tightly in my fist, and her mouth mine to kiss. The testosterone is still burning in my veins.



Wednesday 14 September 2011

Be careful what you wish for

Last time I posted I talked about a damn good pegging and a big dose of humiliation. I also mentioned that I was not unlocked from the chastity belt at all that weekend. Well midweek I've been pleasuring my sandy, but since I only get to cum at weekends I hadn't expected anything in return. Normally however I do get one orgasm each weekend, Its what she prefers. Weekend before last she didn't unlock me and after all the pegging, all the humiliation and lust I was left unsatisfied for the week. This weekend she still had a cold so on Sunday night she demanded a 'comfort orgasm', our code for a nice relaxing no frills orgasm. What I totally didn't expect was for her to snuggle in bed, make no attempt to unlock me, have a couple of nice orgasms, then tell me she was going to sleep and I was going to be left for another week. I was stunned and begged, honestly, for a quick cum, I was desperate by then. She told me in no uncertain terms that i wasn't going to get one, and that in fact she had decided not to before we even got in bed. Though she only told me after her fun of course! I was banned from asking any more.

That's three weekends missed now, and both latter weekends locked up the entire weekend. Not even out for a tease. Basically she is enjoying my locked state, and the fact that she has no need to worry about unlocking me for comfort reasons, that leads to her settling into being happy leaving me chastised all the time. Why worry, it's just not even a factor in her mind. She did admit that after leaving me horny for a third weekend she did feel a little bad, but not much. Not enough to change her mind. I'm wondering if she will even let me cum this weekend, I really hope she does.

In total it's three weeks since my last, accidental cum, more or less a wet dream. 5 weeks since the last proper orgasm, one she gave me in the middle of our vacation. Aaaahhhh! Be careful indeed.

I find that a comfortable chastity device is a very different thing to what we have had before. Because I don't need to be unlocked, even for cleaning, it become easy for sandy to leave me much longer than she expected. It becomes a routine, the norm is locked, it's a hassle to unlock, there is no need, she likes denying me, she gets to cum and enjoy herself. My cock and orgasm has become a non-issue. Why bother? Unlocking is simply not on her mind. I'm sure she will change at some point, she likes a change now and then. But in the meantime she is happy just teasing me in the device and getting her own pleasure. Its a roll, if you get what I mean.

For me It's simultaneously intense, lustful, horny, and very submissive. Unexpectedly though its also easier than denial without the device. I sleep better, my cock is out of reach so I don't play and keep myself half awake in the night. Its very comfortable and doesn't wake me, my horniness does though, some mornings. Usually around 4-5. Without the cage I would normally play until it's time to get up, with being locked up it's pointless. I can't get a good wank so I don't bother. I get back to sleep instead. It helps. All in all my mind doesn't fight it, the decision isn't mine anymore. I can have a little play if my happiness demands it, but it's much less often, less satisfying, therefore less of an attraction. It's not easy I'm still very needy, but it's much easier than unlocked. Apart from the slight stress on the piercing I feel I could just go on.

I daydream often about slipping into her hot, wet pussy. I want it in the worst way. All sandy does is laugh and tell me that she doesn't need it, that she is perfectly satisfied thank you, with a very sexy smirk.

Roll on the weekend. I'm still hopeful.

M



Monday 5 September 2011

A very naughty night

Excuse the rushed writing, I’ve been working till 9:30 so time is limited, but wanted to get this written down before life gets in the way.

Last night my wife was in full on humiliation mood. Earlier in the day she had made me put on her panties, pink frilly ones, with the intention I would wear them all day. However after my shower mid afternoon she decided she wanted me to look manly and sexy so suggested I leave them off. I should have known the respite was temporary. The last week or so she has been talking naughty quite often, regularly referring to fucking my ass. I was pretty sure it was something she was craving.

I was also given 10 punishment strokes of the riding crop for my unauthorised cum last week. And believe me she was hard with it, no warm up. Ouch! I really do see these as punishments; I don’t ever risk getting them when warned.

She has a bit of a cold at the moment, when we got to bed she wondered if she just wanted a quick ‘comfort orgasm’ and then sleep. At this point she had already pinched my nipples a few times, and tickled me. She was threatening not to unlock me and let me cum (this is Sunday night remember), even though on Saturday night she had spent a good 20 minutes hurting me and teasing me without unlocking. Seeing all this I was pretty sure she wasn’t really going to want merely a quick orgasm. I was right, scant moments after I asked her is she no longer wanted to use the strap on she told me, urgently, to go and get it and not waste time.

Around this time she started asking me questions about what I was thinking and what was turning me on. Again like Saturday night, she was enjoying getting under my skin, and like the other night she was pushing at the things that she knew I find humiliating. She suggested she fuck my ass in the pink frilly panties, pulling them to one side, making me hand wash them afterwards. I was embarrassed but she forced me to admit that it turned me on. I joked about her throwing stockings in as well, next thing she was pushing on that, asking if I like the idea, forcing me to admit that while I would find it horribly embarrassing it would turn me on, the humiliation and her wielding the power and forcing me to do it.

So basically I ended up being ordered to put on her used stockings, the pink panties, and bend over the end of the bed. Shortly after sucking the rubber cock she was slowly but forcefully sliding it into my ass. What followed was a long and hard fuck, my face pushed down against the bed some of the time, or me arching back to meet her thrusts and feel her breast brushing my back. She was talking dirty to me, telling me what a slut I am, how dirty it is her fucking her husbands ass while his cock is locked up and he is horny. She was really kinking on the naughty, illicit, and powerful feelings over it. As she fucked me she told me that when she had had enough she was going to pull out, lie back and make me give her some nice orgasms, then she was going to sleep. I wasn’t going to get anything. Her voice got even throatier as she said this, obviously getting off on the idea.

When she finally pulled out (not before I pushed back and fucked the dildo myself for a while as she stayed still), I took off her harness and felt her pussy. It was soaked. Dripping wet.

She did as she said, she came twice and then I was left to kiss her goodnight and spoon into her, my aching cock nestled in her ass as she drifted off.

Why was she so turned on by denying me last night? Partly she enjoys it anyway, but what I’ve never mentioned on the blog is that when she is being dominant her rule is that I only get one cum a week maximum, and only at the weekend. No other days are allowed for that cum. She knew that by denying me Sunday night she had sentenced me to another full week of denial. This after 10 days already, she had made me miss the previous weekend due to my illegal cum, a cum that had been more wet dream than conscious in the first place… As she fell asleep and I breathed the scent of her skin I can honestly say I have rarely loved her more.

Sandy thinks I should put the pics up. She didn't order me to, she's being nice, but said she thinks people would want to see.







Pa5000 orgasm pain

I'm now wearing the pa5000 for three days running, having put it on after 10 days of denial. I'd already earned a very painful caning for cumming without permission at the start of the ten days, and put the pa on to reduce the temptation.

Tonight and last night sandy and I played, though I haven't cum. She also took a very incriminating photo of me, which I can't decide to put up or not! More in another post. She is now sated and asleep, I'm horny and awake!

To cut a long story short I've been kind of masturbating, and I thought it's worth an update on what is and isn't possible in the pa5000.

Masturbating is possible, though not especially satisfying. you can get a finger to the sensitive bits. This is good, for me at least. No touch is fun for a while but after too long I get emotionally cranky.

Orgasm is physically possible. I've done it once. It was hard but if horny enough i could do it every time. I doubt I ever will again though. As you get very close to orgasm your cock swells, especially the head. The one time I came it put so much pressure on the cock head with trapped blood from the cock tube, the piercing was under pressure from the extra swelling, and when the cum arrived it had to force itself through a swollen shut urethra. That moment before orgasm was very painful, and the orgasm itself and the pulses of my cock afterwards were absolute agony. My head felt like it wanted to burst with pressure and the cum was hot fire in my urethra. Physically the pa which I've sized correctly is usually supremely comfortable. Even hard night time erections don't hurt or wake me. But that extra swelling turns it into a different device, one I'm scared of.

Tonight I've edged a few times, with difficulty. But twice I nearly tipped over and at that point where i would have normally let the inevitable happen, I fought like crazy to stop the orgasm before it started. I just started to swell, and already the pain already was such that I had every incentive to stop. Thankfully I managed it.

Devilish device!

Now do nag me to write up our playtime if I don't soon.

M