Wednesday, 28 July 2010

Forever is a long time, Penetrative sex, submission and a PA

In my last post anonymous asked a question.

'Will you ever be able to have simple penetrative sex with Sandy after getting the PA? If not why would you and/or she ever consider this. Forever is a long time.'

I think this deserves a deeper answer than the obvious. The obvious is of course that a PA, once healed can be taken out and reinserted, at last for a short while.

The longer answer has a number of facets.

Simple penetrative sex, no, but fairly simple yes. I need to take the PA out as Sandy does not like the feeling of a piercing inside her. Of course that breaks the flow slightly, like putting a condom on, which makes it less likely that Sandy will want to have intercourse. This is a sacrifice I am willing to make, it only reduces the frequency. I can of course remove it permanently if our lifestyle or emotions require it.

Its a sacrifice I am willing to make because I know its no sacrifice to my wife. Sandy does not especially like being fucked. Not anymore. Before she had kids she found foreplay boring and wanted a good hard fuck, every time. If I ever took my time over foreplay, even 5 minutes, she would tell me to stop mucking around and just stick it in there! During both pregnancies she preferred being played with by hand, and after the second she never really went back to fucking. A good fantasy, my expert fingers, sometimes tongue or toys give her much better orgasms, she never cums from fucking alone and never used to. So for her its no sacrifice. Occasionally, a handful (at most) of times a year she needs a good fuck and on those occasions the PA could come out.

Its also a submission thing. I asked Sandy about this question and her response was that for the 'small' sacrifice she gains something greater, more fun, more control and another means to torment me. Since she discovered her latent domme and I became her deep and committed sub, she gets much more pleasure from tormenting, controlling, teasing and hurting me than pleasuring me. Thats not to say she does not love me, quite the opposite, she has never loved and respected me more. If you saw us in the street you would see a classic couple in love. She still enjoys pleasuring me, but she has discovered that while she likes a burger, she much prefers foie gras and veal. Yes, she prefers the subtler flavours of torment and dominance to simple pleasure. The association of those foods with animal welfare was not an accident. I very very rarely get pure pleasure from her (although we do sometimes have breaks from d/s) even what we call vanilla involves her control and a high chance of a spoilt orgasm, no orgasm, bitten nipples etc. The same applies to me, if it means even less fucking, thats a pleasure that I willingly give up to my mistress and my love. I already ache to feel her pussy for months at a time, whats a little more? She already teases me with what I miss, but the only time I EVER get to fuck is when it suits her and is for her pleasure (though she enjoys for my sake my pleasure in the act as well). So for me the sacrifice is already made, and for her its just not an issue.

Always knowing however that its not permanent, and sensibly if life changes so can we.

Forever is a long time. I hope I am her sub forever and she my Domme. I certainly hope I will not be denied fucking her forever, but once or twice a year just feeds my inner sub and makes her a more fun, more cruel but loving domme.

I hope this answers the question.


Tuesday, 27 July 2010

The scary chastity belt

I've found what may be the belt for me.

The pa5000.

Protects me from too much self harm. Makes cumming very hard. Doesn't cover the end so easy to keep clean indefinitely. Most importantly doesn't go round my balls so won't wake me in the night. (I don't sleep well at the best of times)

Sandy and I have agreed I will get a pa piercing after our holidays. About two weeks from now. Hopefully by Christmas it will be ready to fit the belt. The new stricter sandy scares me though, I hope I don't regret this.


A new route to Subspace

Having a ball gag pushed into her pussy after she has been for a pee but before she has wiped. Well coated then buckled in. Blindfolded. Then spent the better part of an hour between her parted legs and shaven pussy massaging her feet, her scent in my mouth and unable to see her treasure only a foot away. I did that till she fell asleep.


Thursday, 22 July 2010

Cycle blindness

I haven't mentioned that one of my passions is cycling. Not that I'm really hardcore, but I've built my own bike and use it to commute for work. About 100 miles per week.

Today I got knocked off. I'm about to go on vacation. I've nothing more than bruises as sprains, though the bike has fared worse. I wont complain too much as I'm not badly injured. Annoyingly the driver claims her partner is a cyclist and is always telling her to watch out for bikes. It clearly hasn't worked as she turned left without noticing the vehicle in the other lane on her left. Bright daylight.

Some days I especially hate London's congested roads and dopey half asleep sheeple.

There, rant over.


Saturday, 17 July 2010

Sleeping In panties is hard

Yes it is hard ;)

I was asked to massage my wifes feet as she fell sleep tonight. Nothing unusual there. Naked she demanded. Nice touch :)

I asked if I could remove her Panties which I've had on all day. No, she liked me being embarrassed.

Trouble is she fell asleep without giving me permission, so here I lie beside her, her lacy thong teasing my cock and my ass. I am finding it 'hard' to get to sleep.

(yes they are white lace petal x)

Thursday, 15 July 2010

The weekly cum

It seems my wife really likes to deny me. She has settled on one orgasm a week. Pretty much never more, rarely less. I find a few things worthy of comment.

Once a week isn't a lot for me. It's fine at first after a phase of lots of orgasms but as time goes by my need builds up, the one cum enough to slow the inexorable build up of desperation, but not stop it. It's like a slow motion car crash, however much I want to avoid that clawing hunger I know I won't be fed enough.

And it really isn't enough. My sub side is being pushed beyond limits. I want more cums (though I love that she puts her love of denial ahead of my need to cum). I really do want more, though I fall deeper in submission as she imposes her will and denies me my request.

But it's subtle. Slow to build up. Inexorable.

The other thing is why once a week. Sandy finds that's the level at which she gets to keep having fun denying me but I don't get too clingy. I sometimes miss one weekend if she is feeling capricious or i get a spoiled one. But generally it holds true. Too long and I get so I need her constantly, to touch her, hold her, pleasure her. To get second hand what I cant have.

As for loving to deny me... We are about to go on vacation for two weeks. Hot sun and sand. I asked her if I may be allowed more than one a week on holiday. She just laughed at me and said, categorically, no way. Even on holiday she won't ease up. Two weeks of her in a Brazilian bikini, and all those other girls on the beach, I'm almost scared.